2019…

As 2019 heads to a close, I have been thinking about how the year panned out and I came to the conclusion that it was one full of surprises(good and bad), love and hate, and full of moments that can never be forgotten. In short, the year was quite eventful and interesting, to say the least 🙂

  1. First of all, I started writing this blog!! And it came out to be my savior whenever I needed to vent out my feelings on whatever topic it may be. Also, I started writing poetry all thanks to this platform. 31 January 2019, the date of my first post and also the date I would never forget in my life. 50 posts aren’t bad in 10 months and I’m quite proud of myself for that. Also, to those people who have followed the blog since the start, I have a special place in my heart for you all!
  2. Made a lot of memories with some of my best friends playing video games(I would be lying if I said if I wasn’t addicted to Fortnite) and talking nonsense till 3 AM every day just before my Class X Board Examinations(Apparently a big deal here in India). Managed a decent grade in the same despite all of this so-called time wastage
  3. A special mention for the special birthday surprise from my closest buddies. It was one hell of a birthday!!
  4. Made an awesome friend who has always supported me ever since. Also, I made some confidants who were once not so loving towards me <3.
  5. I went to Yellowstone National Park and saw the geysers that I read about so much in textbooks. The park’s attractions like The Old Faithful, The Caldera, and the Mammoth Hot Springs were quite a spectacle and were totally different from the usual tourist spots. Also visited Toronto just around the time the Raptors won. Let’s just say that the city was crazy during this time.
  6. I wrote a book!! Well, a single story which is going to be published in a book and it was an interesting experience! Not to forget the  complications that I had to go through to change some part of the story due to a reason (SECRET)
  7. Took up Commerce as my main subject(after a lot of deliberation) in class 11 and to be honest, I could have taken up Psychology but am still satisfied with my decision. (Economics is love)
  8. Learnt some new skills unknowingly.  Robotics, editing and carrying out surveys being some of them. Consistently wrote for the school magazine. Interesting fact-Around half of the articles that I had published were taken from this blog. But I lost all the basketball tournaments in which I participated. *Sobbing*
  9. I visited Sikkim, a small state in India and had some different experiences there. River rafting and hiking to name a few. Also experiences what it was like to have difficulty in breathing due to high altitude!! I also went to a hill station with my school-mates and made unforgettable memories. (3 AM Chit chat and playing cards)
  10. Maintained my old habits. I’m still an overthinker, still sensitive to emotions and still an introvert. Old habits die hard. I did get more vigilant, became more confident and tried to give all of my love and affection to all the people I like and care for.

If you were a part of my life this year in some way or the other, be it a reader and supporter of the blog or my best friend, I love you all. Let’s kill the next year and the decade together !!

Over and Out!!!

You’re worth it

One minute you feel on top of the world

And in the next, you don’t even find joy in the chirping of the most melodious of birds

One night, you feel as if you’re drowning

And the next day, you scream, “What a lovely morning!”

 

One minute, you feel that you are on cloud nine

And in the next, you think that you are not worth even a dime!

One night you find a person to be full of misunderstandings and mistrust

And the next day, you realise that the person was actually worth much more than gold-dust

 

All of these spontaneous changes in feelings

And all of those thoughts inside you with which you are dealing

Searching here and there for some meaning

Trying to make sense of what you are always dreaming

Is something that happens to every human being.

 

So just remember that you are not alone in whatever you are going through

You’ll eventually find someone who’ll always be there for you

Whenever you feel your life is tragic

Remember that some souls know magic…

 

Over and Out

 

 

 

 

The person whom you consider…

The person whom you consider to be egoistic might just be suffering from depression

And the one who seemed to be too arrogant could be the one who is never allowed self-expression

The one whom you consider to be full of attitude might just be a case of shyness

And the one who seemed to be rude  might just be the epitome of kindness

 

The person whom you consider to be your lifeline might just be the one who is going to leave you in the end

And the person whom you seemed to be your enemy could turn out to be the one whom you’ll be ever-ready to defend

The person whom you consider to be the least caring might just be the one who secretly tries to always protect you

And the person who seems to be the one who constantly ignores you could be the one of the few who might understand what you are going through

 

The one whom you consider to be jealous of you might just be the one who appreciates the odds that you are defying

And the one who seems to be unfair could be the only one who wants to see you flying

The person whom you consider a “nobody” in your life might just be the one whom you’ll have to count your blessings on

And the one who seems to hate you could be the one who adores you to the moon and beyond…

 

Over and out

 

Midnight Thoughts…

Random midnight thoughts 🙂   –

  1. When you sleep, remember that millions don’t have a bed to sleep on and thousands who go to sleep in fear of death.
  2. When you feel like you are losing grip, remember that all that matters is that you still keep trying.
  3. When you end up messing up a thing out of your comfort zone and people laugh, remember that you at least had the guts to try and most of those laughing didn’t
  4. When you fail, remember that the failure strengthened you.
  5. When you feel sad, remember that life is about the memories, the happy memories. Just smile and look forward to something exciting.
  6. When you complain about a “necessity”, remember that that necessity might be a luxury for some.
  7. When you feel overwhelmed by what someone else has, remember all those things that you have and the people that love you. Accept who you are because you are unique and no one can ever replace you.
  8. When you feel betrayed, remember that you didn’t do anything wrong and let karma do its work.
  9. When you feel that something is really hard, remember conquering that thing would give you greater satisfaction
  10. When you procrastinate, remember that watching the same movie after completing your work would be more enjoyable
  11. When you feel that someone does not see your worth, remember that you don’t owe anyone anything. Live life, jumbo size!
  12. When you feel ignored, remember you are capable of achieving anything by YOURSELF. And when someone neglects you, remember sometimes, somewhere they will end up needing you.
  13. When you feel like dying, remember that you are not allowing happy times to come. Think of the people who helped raise you and how would they feel.
  14. When you feel lost, remember it is better to do something than nothing and being stuck in the dark.
  15.  When you feel anxious and afraid to do something, remember that you live only once and eventually everything ends so take a deep breath and do what you want to.
  16. When something doesn’t go right, remember to learn from it.
  17. When you like something or someone, remember to own up to it.
  18. When you hate something or someone, remember to not show it to the entire world.
  19. When you do something out of mere selfishness to someone, remember that the same thing could have been done to you and imagine what would you have felt.
  20. When you realize the list is over and you have read all of it, remember that I love you ❤

Over and out!!

 

Mortals!

Life is short-lived
Do and say whatever you have ever craved.
 Always try to fly like an eagle
Unless what you’re doing is illegal

All those things which make you go, ‘Wow’
Do those right now!
Try to be with people you love 
What you shouldn’t do to them is shove!

Only make those promises which you can keep
It would make others adore you deep
Don’t be afraid to love and care
That is what makes you rare 
And would make people stand and stare

Express yourself to the people you trust
There’s no one else that would help you adjust.
They are the ones that would provide you protection
And not judge you for your imperfections

If there are ever problems-communicate
So your mouth doesn’t fill with distaste!
If they really treasured you,
They would say, “Let’s make this right, mate!”

Just don’t live wearing two masks,
And let Karma do its task
Just don’t lie,
And you will become happy in the blink of an eye!

Vent out whatever you have to, if you haven’t done it yet
Just so you don’t end up with regret.
There is no right time which is right
And no time which is wrong
It is you who decides your fate
But you can’t just sit around and wait
As you won’t get everything on a plate!
You won’t get everything on a plate!

Over and out

The feeling of..

                                    

 

There was something in his mind

Not person, not a thing

But the most important feeling

The feeling , the feeling.

It nourishes his soul

Gave him the confidence of being a diamond and not a simple piece of coal

It calm downs his mind

And brings in the belief that the  world might still be kind

Encourages him to work towards what he wants, bit by bit

It says, “It’ll surely be worth it”

Instills in the faith that even though selflessness might sting

But it does give you the wings

Towards happiness and jolly things

When others tell him to sit down

It tells him to stand up

When others tell him to stop

It tells him to start

When darkness and clouds combine

It provides him with a little ray of sunshine

Of love, faith and something divine

It might cause him to daydream,

But it does provide him with the mettle to reign supreme!

It might leave him dejected sometimes,

But it does provide him with an opportunity to shine!

It is what allows him to cope

With failure, distrust, and all the downwards slopes

It is the feeling of hope

Of hope, of hope.

Still, he rose

                                          

He was used by many but was still grateful

He was misunderstood but fought through

He was not accepted but still tried to be kind to everyone

He was used not by strangers, but by his friends…

He was ridiculed for not understanding things even when he understood everything

He tried to blend in but in vain

He tried to be more open but it made him more insecure

He kept up with the latest trends but was still not welcomed

He remained a tool of help but never a human who deserved happiness

He finally realized that the world is self-centered

When he asked for help, people turned their backs.

When he went quiet, people accused him of being arrogant

When he stopped caring, he was considered a narcissist

When he kept things to himself, they suspected something wrong

What they didn’t know was that they were the “something wrong”

Was he afraid?

Maybe

Did he show it?

Not at all

Did he indulge in self-pity?
Maybe

Did he have any idea what to do?

Not at all

More than anything, he was made to feel guilty even when it wasn’t his fault.

They went on and on and on and on till one day, nothing was left to exploit.

Every few hours, a blow hit him

Which took various forms

“Friends” betraying him,

Not including him in activities

Ignoring him when he didn’t serve their purpose

And he took it at all in his stride

Until one day, he couldn’t take it anymore

His heart turned to stone

And was not listened to anymore

His life became a blur

His mind became restless

His soul desperately needed to be calmed down

His pillow was evidence of his helplessness

His only wish now was for school to end

What had been his second home for years

Became a nightmare for him

Asking his own friends for succour became an ordeal

His life hung by a thread, of a few loved ones

It was the thread that still gave him support to live on

Maybe it was all his fault

Maybe it was him who was to be blamed for his condition

And now he was lost,

Lost in the sea of diffidence

Lost in thoughts of future

Lost in the comfort of home

Lost in daydreams

A quote kept him going

“This too shall pass”

And then he rose…

#StopPassiveBullying #BeGrateful #Care #MentalHealth